I have never believed it more.
Some days are harder than others. Some days I feel like I’m actually going insane because of how stressed I am. But I just have to know it’s okay to give myself a break and breathe. Always easier said than done...
On Tuesday my to-do list was a full day commitment, (my planner has never looked uglier.) I had 3 shoots, two papers to work on, and other homework to complete. (Not all of it was due one day, I'm just ahead of schedule, to make that clear.) As soon as I submitted homework, I got feedback immediately from a professor and it was exactly what I needed: a response letting me know I was confident in my writing voice, when that is normally a big struggle.
Things will pay off; hard work definitely will pay off. It’s feels good and right to say that I’m proud of myself. And it’s only midterms, but this school has tested me so much already. I have to keep pushing.
It’s a gift being here because I’m learning and growing not only as an artist but also as a person. At the end of the week, it’s so worth knowing you did your best, with true effort, and put your heart into projects. Although I haven’t felt as proud of my photos here quite yet, I’m being tested conceptually, and I know that in time I will find my way. But I can't give up, even if I don't feel as creative or get a bad critique. That's the reason I am here, I am only a student.
I have never worked harder in my life. And maybe it's good that I'm my own worst critic, it's only motivating me to work that much harder. You are not losing your mind, Mollie. You’re growing.